Testimonial
I don't know what it is...
…but this season of my life feels like one huge lesson in how much I can hold. How much hurt, sadness, joy, love. All at once.
In my day-to-day work I am steeped in peacebuilding, and all of the things that compound word can mean. I’ve been doing this work for fifteen years, and this sense of rollercoasting from one emotion to another has come up before. It feels closer this time, somehow. The riots and counter-protests. The hatred. The genocides. The exploitation. The very basic lack of care. And at the same time, the wonderful people doing their very best for others in the most trying of circumstances. The love. The tenderness, the tending to. The hope.
These are words to myself, to all of the versions of me. They soothed me when I found them, and so I share them here hoping you find some soothing in them too.
Hold your breath my dear and jump right in. Feel your body - held, suspended - just for this moment. Break through the surface child, gasping, and drink in every sweet breeze you find. There are things you don't have words for yet. Don't be afraid darling name them for yourself. This world is your promise - she is yours to shape. Shape her with words with pictures or your hands. Pour luck on the things you love and savour the taste.
This!!! Loved this reflection Claire and feeling so many of these same feelings and overwhelmed much of the time with emotions I am struggling to find containers for. Much love ❤️
"Name them for yourself" 💛 A reminder that we can inwardly, at least, control and name those big feels however we would like to!